:'(

PD, Malacca trip! I so miss!!

今天我又做夜鬼啦

每天都有一大堆做不完的功课，觉也不够睡，好累

很想出去玩！想念云顶的空气，想念马六甲的食物，想念我亲爱的朋友！

真的很想离开KL, 至少不用再对着功课！面对烦恼！一天就好！
可是又有谁会愿意？

  发泄完毕，拜拜！

 4.21 am
14/7/2012

我不再是十八岁的我

不管生活有多困难, 有多煎熬，我也会勇敢走下去!

No matter how hard life it is, I will go through with it!

 =）

8/7/2012 4.00 am

Good night!

Busy bloody hell.

Read my title? Yea I'm absolutely bloody hell busy recently.

A lot things have to do stuck in my mind, have to managed time very well, and learning to be SMART in life. No more blur-ing, no more simply-simply. This is what my target and I'm trying to achieve it :)
Next week having mock interview with lecturer and real interview with sales & marketing director in Le Meridian. People said is not easy to get in this hotel, its quite strict and hard, but somehow i wish to try, i really want to try in event department. So, wish me luck! *Fingercrossed*

Here's some sharing :)

"Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?"

"That depends a good deal on where you want to get to," said the Cat.

"I don’t much care where--" said Alice.

"Then it doesn’t matter which way you go," said the Cat.

"--so long as I get SOMEWHERE," Alice added as an explanation.

"Oh, you’re sure to do that," said the Cat, "if you only walk long enough."

(Alice's Adventures in Wonderland, Chapter 6)

2.26am

30/6/12 Good nights!

Short lil updated.

 Hello hi, is me again. Now the time is 3am now. Guess what I'm doing now? Yea fuck up I'm rushing my business plan like a dog. -.- The due date is this wednesday and now i just done 50%. Hell ya? D:

Just realize the time flies so fast, is already 26th and July is coming, internship, working life is nearest! Exciting but with some worrying. Haiz life is full of challenges! 

Anyway, i want to party 99 after this week! Date me date me! Bring me out of the house! :') 

Bye, night

26/6/12, 3:13am

'Live is hard, deal with it.'

Hey there, i'm back with bringing three good news!
I finally passed my two resit papers, thanks god and thanks myself! I achieved my goal :) Like what i said, if you think you can, you can! Believe in yourself!
Second, i had joined the 'Gas world conference 2012' last week, although its tiring, everyday have to wake up early at 5am, but i learned a lot, and met a lot new friends!
Third, dad bought me an iphone 4s! Thanks my lovely dad so much, he is the only one who love me the most. But now i still feel guilty :( Hmm, when i can get my allowance? I have to buy smth for the father's day which on next Sunday, any suggestion?

is 6th week now, assignments due date.
Everything have to rush, mid-term, interview, so stresssssss!
But i still need to go through it, I'm not that little girl anymore, isn't it?
*Fingercrossed*

'Live is always hard, just deal with it.'
10/6/12

Long post after so long.

Do you know the meaning of this song?

 

Titanium is actually means a strong substance that can take on bullets. A material strong enough to take on many things without tearing apart. We don't have to be afraid and that we can be strong. We are so strong for what we believe in that since we are like titanium that the "bullets" ricochet. 

This month I've been go through a lot. But yea i'm still alive now =)

Basically what was happen in this month is all about bad-luck, i wondering why my luck is go until so worst.
First, I had took two resit exam papers on last week due to failure on final papers last sem and the exam results will release on next tuesday. Oh lord oh god, please pray for me, let me pass this both exam, i don't want and I can't to repeat! *Fingercrossed*

Next, actually I've a working event in klcc which together with all my course mate next week. But unfortunately I couldn't be join due to my friend's minor mistake. I know i can't blame anyone, i know no one want this happen, but yea is still me and only me cannot join and follow this trip.

I lost a learning chance which working as an event crew where i always expecting and this event is actually happening once in a blue moon. And i also lost a chance for earning money, because its actually provide allowance while working for 5 days. So its actually break me down.
I keep tearing when i know this happen, I keep asking why this happening on me? Why is just only me? But i just can't do anything. Friends and lecturer know I'm sad maybe they wonder and thought that I've too over react? yea.. maybe.. and i lost the 5 days attendance marks :(
Btw, can anyone tell me what can i do for the next week, the 5 days holidays? Staying home? Sleeping all day? Watching drama? Vacation? This is not life that i want :( but still i accept the 'gift' that 'you' gave...

Convincing myself everything happens with a reason.
And told ya a funny things, last Saturday i bought my very first time TOTO! Haha you must curious why so bad luck but still go buy TOTO? I also don't know why, just feel like already 'In expectation' haha!

Tomorrow is the last day of may, which I've passed the bad month i ever had, i wish all the bad luck can ends here. Good luck please come to me again! June, please love me a lot! I wish i can be more and more stronger in my future life just like the song... =)

10.13pm 

30/5/2012

♥

 

Happy Birthday Dad,

Wish you good healthy and happiness always!

From your beloved daughter, Yeng! :')

Target!

I will try to get what i want as soon as possible!
Study hard & also work hard!!:') Good luck for me!*crossfinger*

我希望我能够坚强

今天心情不怎么好，又睡不着，突然想写起blog来

前两天，星期日(29/4) 那天，和我很爱的Jen,Wengsiu 出去玩，在没计划的下去了Pd和Malacca.
不知道是不是很久没见到他们了，所以我觉得那天很开心，虽然只是简单的在一起
真的是太久没聚在一起了，很想念他们，很想念以前嘻嘻哈哈的日子，没有烦恼，见他们多过见我爸妈，开心伤心都是和他们度过，很怀念每天腻在一起的感觉
他们就像我哥哥姐姐，对我很好，还记得有次我不开心，没吃东西，Wengsiu半夜还特地买了些食物过来让我吃，第二天他们还带我去吃大餐，我很感动，也很感激他们
可能对他们来说，我就只是一个普通的学生，可是对我来说，他们在我心里永远都有一定很重要的位置

还记得那天快要回到家就开始不舍了，进了房间突然眼泪不禁的流下来，我不知道为什么，突然觉得很空虚，感觉就像我又回到了我一个人的世界，
他们又离开我了，几时还能见面？之后还收到Weng的信息，我更不舍
虽然说说距离也不是很远，可是大家都各自忙着自己的生活，说要见面，也没真的那么容易配合到，所以我后悔了，后悔那天没听Weng说去他那里，后悔没趁这个假期好好聚聚，因为现在的我更想他们了

那天在回家的路程有说不完的话题，说到了未来，我害怕了，因为我没有目标，我没有像他们有的未来，我很羡慕他们，可以拥有自己要的东西，
Jen有很疼爱她的Wengsiu, 她太幸福了，我说过我也要找个像他对她那样好的男人，可是我没那么幸运，我却还是个什么都不是的女孩
20岁，什么也做不到，什么也没有，我太失败了，这真的是命运吗? 以后的路我该怎么走？又谁能教我？陪着我... 我真的不够独立，我也学不会怎样独立...

2/5/12 (3.19am)

Maself

There's nothing can break me, myself!